"Friends will pick you up when you fall, but only a best friend will trip you and laugh." 

Hey! Welcome to my website. I hope you guys enjoy it. I had something longer here before, but it wasn't really relevant anymore, so I thought I'd write something new, but I don't have anything new to write. Oh well... maybe next time.

My Screename: sweetshop31 

8.21.03

I put a bunch of pictures up today. 167 to be exact. Yesterday was hectic but i didn't do anything. I was trying to get into the city, which didn't quite work out. I can't wait until my mom finishes up at camp so that she's home when I need a ride somewhere. On that note, I can't wait until I have my license so I will always have a ride somewhere. This coming up weekend/week is going to crazy. Tomorrow (Friday) I'm going to go get my permit with my dad, which means he's probably going to take me driving, which will be a disaster. Let's put it this way,  I couldn't even have him teach me how to ride a bicycle. Then Saturday David's coming over to hang out for the day. Sunday I'm going to Great Neck to visit family and then I'm going to meet up with Sam and Gavi. Later I'm going to Emily's house and staying over until Monday. Tuesday I'm going out to Tanger. And then Wednesday I'm going to Six Flags with Aaron and Rachel. It's going to be so much fun. I'm very excited. 

8.20.03

So I got home from camp 2 days ago, and haven't really done anything of value since then. I have this awful feeling that the summer never happened. I just have this huge blank space in time. I feel like i wasted a lot of time this summer sleeping and hanging out in the bunk. I've been working on my pictures a lot lately. Hopefully I'll have them up in the next two or three days. It's wierd, because I get home and my entire room is covered with pictured from last year. I just want to let all my CRB friends know that I had an amazing summer and that I can't thank you guys enough for everything you've brought to my life. The summer is all a blur to me now, I'm not really sure why. It just went by so incredibly fast. I'm seriously dreading school and putting off all the summer assignments I have. They give us soooooooo much work, I can't stand it anymore. The most annoying part is, at the end of the year after tests and everything it's like you're just supposed to forget it all because you don't need it anymore. That's the most annoying part about school. Neway, it's incredibly hot in my room during the day and freezing at night because of the poor insulation that I have. It's kinda like camp so I like it like that. I'm going to go to Rolling Hills tomorrow for a few hours to visit and stuff. That should be fun. I have mixed feelings about shabbos this week. I'm excited because I always have so much fun even at home, but it's not going to be anywhere near that of camp. I remember last year I thought that I'd go to shul every friday night after camp, but I went the first shabbos and I could barely stand it. It was so quiet and didn't mean a thing to me anymore. And then there's the whole issue I'm having with my religious beliefs and my synogogue that I'm not really sure what I'm going to do, and I never got the chance to talk to Jesse like I wanted to so I'm pretty much lost in that sect of my life. Now I'm just rambling, so I'm going to end this here. 

My e-mail address at camp is Pamela.Engelberg@ramahberk.ecamp.net Just remember, I can't e-mail you back, I can only write letters, so if you e-mail me, and I didn't get a chance to write down your address, then put your address in the letter or you won't be getting any mail back. Have a great summer!!! mwaz

6.24.03

So it's my last day home, I'll be leaving in less than 12 hours. I didn't think I was going to be very sad, but somehow I am. Despite what I may have said, after all the fun I had today, I realize what a great year I had and what great friends I had. Honestly, I didn't want to move. But overall, I feel I'm a much more open person. I don't feel pressured by any of my friends to do anything and I love that. I didn't expect this year to be as much fun as it was, and I am so utterly thankful for everything. It's going to be wierd next year going to the same school, since I've been to three different schools in the past three years. But I like that. I have some experiences no one would ever dream of, and I have friends all over the place. I love the fact that if I ever need help, I have a million places to turn. I'm assuming that if you're reading this you're one of my friends, so really, thanks for everything. Those of you at Ward Melville, you guys made me feel very welcome at the beginning of this year, unlike how I felt at Newfield for the first month. You made it so much easier to adjust and I have to say this was the best school year ever. Not only did I did everything I wanted to academically, but I've made some awesome new friends who I'll never ever forget. Julie, it makes me really sad to know that your leaving after only getting to know you for a year. I'm really going to miss you (and your trampoline ;) haha.) To my Brendel girls -  you guys are the best, I don't think I've ever had so much fun in science. To my lunch/math/english/in front of school in the morning/gym crew - you guys were the first people I talked to in this school, and right away you made me feel welcome. I can't thank you enough for that. You can't imagine what it's like to sit at lunch alone, and luckily i didn't have to this year. To my USY friends - I really hated hated USY last year, but I had so much fun this year with you guys, and I'm def looking forward to an amazing year next year. Have fun at encampment if you're going, I'll try to right you guys a letter on one of the bunk walls. To my Newfield friends - though I didn't really know any of you for that long, I love the fact that when we get together it's like I've known you forever. To my camp buddies - well, you know I won't be missing you, because we're about to spend the best two months of our lives together so BOOYA! To Aaron - thanks so much for everything, for being my concert buddy and for being my halo enemy, for friday night TV and card games, and for always being there (and taking the blame every now and then). If I didn't get a chance to give you my address, or vice-versa, I'm putting my camp e-mail at the top of this post. I can't send you e-mails back, so if you decide to use it, put your address on it so I can write back. I'm going to miss you all incredibly much and I've definately got a lot to look forward to. Have an absolutely amazing summer and I'll see you all when I get back.

Hugs and Kisses

Pam

I thought these were interesting. Haha, yes I know, I have no life... hmmm.....

6.22.03

Packing for camp has been hell, and Rachel just makes it so much worse. Not only does she have to get on my nerves, but she has to get on my mom's who is then very easy to anger. She has got to learn when to keep her mouth shut. My mom is always pissed now and so its hard to get stuff done. She was in a good mood before, but Rachel opened her mouth and there it all went. You all wonder why I dislike my sister so much. Not only does she constantly piss me off, but she pisses everyone else off, and that just makes my life more difficult. 

I still have not studied for Chemistry, and my head hurts like hell. The Brand New cd i ordered has yet to come, and This Island Earth is no longer on Long Island, so that's really frustrating. I can't wait for camp. Quite frankly, despite the fact that I don't think it is going to be like i expect it, I need to get away from my family because they're driving me mad. Or to make it more exact, Rachel is driving me crazy and I can't wait to get away from her. I'm kind of worried my mom or dad will read this and get mad about me writing this stuff about my sister. I always wonder whether they read this site. Sometimes I don't really care, but sometimes I hope they don't. I guess it's not all that smart to put my feelings up here for everyone to read if i don't want everyone to read it. Oh, well, a little late now, right?

So today was another disgusting day outside. did i mention my head hurts? I can't think straight. I hate my sister. She wants me to help her pack, so i offered to help with her clothes, because i don't know how to pack her other bag, i don't even know how to pack mine for god's sake. and so she says she has an idea of how so I tell her to go start while i finish this up, and she says but I have no idea what I'm doing. How the fuck and I supposed to know!!!!!! EEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRR!!!! This is going to be one of those unbearable few days. I CANNOT WAIT FOR CAMP, ON FEAR THAT I MIGHT KILL MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have the sudden urge to rip someone's head off, mainly Rachel. We shall see how well that goes.....

6-18-03 (2)

Yes, this is my second entry of the day. But check out my cool table thing. Props to Aaron for that one. I'm going to find little things to put to the left of this because it's a little blank now. Maybe links or pictures or something. Maybe ads???? No I hate ads. 

I just got home from the global history regents. The bus was really crowded, I had to sit on Shanza's lap for a while there. Someone's calling my house now, I don't know who it is. If you want to write to me during camp let me know and I'll give you my address. I'd post it but then all you stalkers will know where I live. BAHAHA

Ok, I'm really hungry, again. It's raining, again. This is the worst entry ever. I'm going to look for things to put to the left of my sick ass table. BUBYE!

6-18-03

I wanted to wear my glasses to the Global regents today, but it's raining, so I'm wondering whether that's still a good idea...

Btw, Aaron, I put in a table so this wouldn't extend on forever like you said it was, but it didn't do anything. Any suggestions?

6-17-03

It's kind of late right now. I just finished studying for global. I blew up at my mom today over something stupid, and she got really upset because she says that no one listens to her or believes what she says and she left the house for a few hours. Apparently she's still really mad, but I haven't seen her. I feel really awful because i jumped to conclusions and should have given her the benefit of the doubt. I left a message on her cell phone, but I don't think she listened to it, and I wonder if she will. I think tomorrow I'm just going to go to Target and do my camp shopping by myself and hope that someone will reimburse me. I should be going to sleep soon, but I hate going to sleep upset, and I'm too afraid to approach my mom. I'm worried I'm just going to make things worse, and that's the last thing I need before camp. 

I went out with Julie today to Starbucks and we studied for like 3 hours. It was a lot of fun, her car is really funny. There are 8 days until camp now. I've been giving out my address and getting other people's addresses lately, but I'm not quite done. And I have to finish my camera so I can get the pictures developed before camp. 

In the music scene, Aaron told me that JT left Sprout, though I don't see anything about it on the website. I'm also confused about TBS's break up because they're website says ""there are changes brewing but we promise to be back soon, bigger, taller, stronger". So yeah, if you know anything, let me know. 

Just to clarify, in yesterday's blog entry, when I said that I feel like I've been eating to much food lately, I was not implying that I think I'm fat because I know I'm not, I just think I've been eating too much food and it's not good for me health wise. Basically, I've been having a minimum of four meals a day with snacks in-between, and trust me, I'm not growing, so whatever.

I thought I'd do a little reflection blog the night before I leave for camp, but right now I'm just sitting here thinking, and I didn't accomplish any of the goals I set for myself for this year. It's kind of disappointing, and a little too late now. I hate times like these, when I'm upset so all I see is everything that's wrong with my life and I can't see all the good. I don't have a horrible life, I just can't fuckin see. 

6-16-03

It's been quite some time since my last update. As of right now, I'm feeling really nauseous and i know you all care. I got my new glasses today. They're really cool, I'm going to wear them to the Global regents. When I wear them with Aaron's hat, i look very emo. Now i just need to wear a striped collared shirt and walk around looking down and depressed all day. 

I got the new Mest cd. It was a big event. You see, last time i went to buy a cd at Best Buy they didn't have it and it was a huge waste of time because I don't like to ask for help. So this time I was like, I'm going to be smart and check the website to see if they have it. So i check the website, and it says they don't have it. So i try to order it from the website, and it won't let me so. So fine, i settle for half.com. Then it's friday afternoon and Aaron was driving me home from work because he wanted to stop in Best Buy to get the new Dropkick Murphy's cd, and guess what? They have the new Mest cd. And not just one, but like 50. (Note: mine had yet to come in the mail). So i was livid. We were walking around the store so that Aaron could find useless crap to buy, and i was complaining very loudly. Needless to say, when i got home it was in the mail. 

I also ordered the new Brand New cd, but it hasn't come yet. It comes out in stores tomorrow, but I ordered the promo of half.com. Best Buy better not have it this time, or I'll have a shit fit. 

Yesterday was my last concert of the year. It was the Voodoo Glow Skulls, Pietasters , Catch-22, and The Mighty Mighty Bosstones. The show was really good. Catch-22 was amazing. The crowd was also really fun. I got up close like a normally do (considering that I'm on the smaller side, i can fit through the cracks). And so yes, just as i wanted, i went out with a bang. And that will be my last punk show for about 2 months. Unless the downtown has some good stuff when i come home, its This Island Earth Fest i'll be really looking forward too. 

School's been kind of nuts lately. So many tests and so little time to study. Plus I have like three new cds, so it's hard for me to focus. I really like ASOB now, i made a cd with all this live stuff that you can get when you put "All The Little Ones Are Rotting" in your computer, it's REALLY funny. Then Aaron made me the Jason Mraz, i got Mest, and Wakefield. So yeah, i have four new cds, not three, I can't do math in my head, so sue me. 

I've gone to work for the past three days and made all the money i will most likely need for the summer. It was hard work, not just desk work this time. A lot of walking back and forth with big heavy files that were like 20 years older than me. Okay, maybe not 20, maybe just my age or like 5 years older, but still, thats pretty damn old. 

Camp starts in 9 days, and I'm finally going to be 16 in about a month and 2 weeks. I'm kind of nervous for camp, and i feel like I've been eating too much food lately. I'm going to go read my whole Global History review book before i go to sleep. Lahitraot. (despite the fact that thats a transliteration, i still think i spelled it wrong, my apologies)

This was written yesterday, but could not be posted until today because my computer crapped out on me.

6-8-03

I have an issue with all these new "mini" snacks. Like mini teddy grahams, or mini goldfish. What's the point? Aren't they already small enough? Before they were bitesize, do they want us to swallow them whole now? and what about kids, they could choke on them cuz theyre so small. Maybe they think because of that theyre not supposed to be chewed. It doesn't make any sense. And dont get me started with the big goldfish crackers. those things are humongous. and theyre scary looking. who wants to eat a funny looking giant goldfish as a snack? You have to take like 5 bites to eat one, it's like a fucking meal! I think that these companies are getting a little stupid. Not that i think colored goldfish was a smart idea either. That's like the colored ketchup. It's disgusting. 

Speaking of disgusting, i was at the butcher today with my mom, and she pulls out a cow's tongue from the shelf. I mean a fully functional (well no not functional in the sense that it works, but) whole cow's tongue. It was disgusting. I left the store after that. Despite the fact that my family calls me the carnivore, i can't stand raw meat. 

I'm going back to revising the work that I got A+'s on and then making a collage about myself. Another stupid project for another stupid class. Why is English a required course if you don't learn anything? I could read on my own, why do i need a class to help me.........

6-6-03

As I was putting together my English portfolio and going through all my past assignments (to find that I'm missing the vital pieces to the works I wanted to use in my portfolio, but that's besides the point) I stumbled upon this story (or beast fable rather, yeah, my English teacher gave us really stupid writing assignments) that Nate helped me write at the beginning of the year. Personally, I think it's hilarious and I'm surprised she gave me an A, but many other people find it kind of sick. See for yourself......

The Bear, The Salmon, and The Hunter

One day a bear was walking through the forest when he came across a salmon who had gotten entangled in a fishing net while innocently swimming down the stream. The salmon cried out in despair, "Please save me. I see you have sharp claws, you could easily cut me out of this mess I have gotten myself into." The bear thought to himself, "This salmon, who has fallen upon such misfortune, looks like he would a very appetizing meal. The salmon would never suspect that I, the bear, would attempt to eat him. What luck I have fallen upon."

Just as the bear bent down to detach the fish, the net untangled from the rocks and began to rush down the stream. The salmon, being disoriented, screamed out in terror, "Help me! I cannot find my way out of this net and it is rushing towards the waterfall." The bear, not wanting to give up such an easy meal, rushed after the fish. Yet again, the net got caught on some sharp stones.

The bear came up by the salmon and began to detach the net. "Thank you, I am so lucky to have come across such a sympathetic bear like you. Most animals I know would jump at the chance to eat me," said the salmon. The bear finished untangling the net and grabbed the salmon out of the water, before he could scurry away. "What a fool you are! I am no different from your other animal friends. I have finally caught you, and now I will eat you," proclaimed the bear.

The salmon, realizing what misfortune he had fallen upon, pleaded with bear for his life. Just as the bear was placing the salmon in his gaping maw, a big game hunter came out of the brush. "Halt! You may think that your deceit has won you everything, but now you will be my greatest trophy." The bear turned to look at the hunter, but it was too late. The hunter shot him in the gut and he keeled over in death. The salmon flew out of the bear’s hands into the stream and swam away.

Ok, back to work. This is a nice color on the black. BTW, DANA DANA DANA DANA DANA DANA!!!

6-5-03

So, my dilemma of the week... take the SAT II for Chemistry or go to Six Flags with USY. I'm not so sure if I will do well on the SAT II, only because I've had almost no time to study, but then again, I have all of tomorrow and Saturday to prepare. Plus, if I feel like I'm not doing well I can just cancel my score before I hand it in. Or, I can give up and go to Six Flags. I feel like I already made up my mind to take the test, and I do have some things I need to do afterward. So yeah, I'll take a practice and see how I do. Hal has been hocking me all week to go, but Dr. Brendel (my chemistry teacher) said that as long as i get the review in I'll do well.

Tomorrow is Shavuot so I'm not going to school. I figure, I'll get to wake up at around 9:00-9:15, get to wear one of my new skirts, and then come home and sit outside and study in the nice weather. By the way, this morning was so horrible out, but it is GORGEOUS out right now. There are 20 days until camp and I'm starting to get a little nervous because I'm not ready. It's like those horrible dreams I always have about being in camp and not having some essential thing, like deodorant, or a toothbrush. It drives me crazy. All my friends are like, you should just be happy that you're there, but I'm always freaking out. I guess that's my obsessively organized self coming out in my unconscious self (in a not really kind of way). 

I had forgotten to give my mom her diamond necklace back after Jordi's sweet 16, which by the way, was a lot of fun. And so she wanted to wear it to the bris they were going to because Lynn and Gill had a son (they are the cutest couple ever). She couldn't find it and then realized I had it, so came to find it in my room, which she didn't find because it was in my closet with my yet to be unpacked bag from Sam's house. Anyway, she searched through my jewelry box, and left open and little messed up. So when I went to go put it away i noticed this little pink box. So I opened it and found my vbhbp necklace. So I've been wearing it lately. It's pretty, I like it. 

I believe the whole event I'm going to explain happened Monday, though I might be wrong. My mom picked me up to go to the orthopedist office after school that day. I hate going there for many reasons. Not only do they make you wait forever, but you have to wear those paper robes when they take x-rays, and then the doctor comes in and tells me the same exact thing he says every time. So this time we waited for three hours before actually going in. Then they kept messing up my x-ray so I had to get three done. Finally, the doctor comes in, and guess what! he told me the exact same thing. On top of all this, Chock Full o'Nuts is under construction so I couldn't even get coffee. Then we go out for dinner that night because my mom didn't have time to cook due to the wait, and at the diner this man has an epileptic seizure. It was quite scary. Not the best thing to see in the middle of dinner. 

On the good side, my digital camera came. It's really cute. So nice and small. And it fits in my pocket, which is amazing because it is virtually impossible to put anything in the pockets of my jeans due to how girls jeans are made. The only thing is that the Compact Flash card reader it came with is not working completely yet. I don't have time to fix it now. I think I'm going to go outside and study Chemistry. This is going to be fun, well the going outside part, not the Chemistry part. 

As a note, the picture's of Gavi are now connected to the Your Pictures section of Summer 2002. 

6-3-03

Max finally sent me the pics of Gavi, so check 'em out.... I have a lot of stuff to do, so I'll write about my life another time. And quite frankly, if you really care, just ask........ :)

5-23-03

If you haven't already noticed, I'm really bored, hence all the changes. This is an interesting color. I think that black and white banner is very dynamic. And i love how the blue looks when you scroll down. I didn't change all the colors, cuz quite frankly, im not that bored.This weekend is gonna be another one of those crazy ass weekends. I have to do the math project tomorrow, then I'm babysitting Saturday night. Sunday I'm going to Sam's so that Sunday night i can go to Jordi's sweet 16. Monday, if i can plan to get back on time, then I'll go to that concert at the downtown. Thank god that place isn't closing. Good news!: Mest is coming out with a new cd!!! I'm so excited, the stuff I've heard is pretty damn good. June 10, it's already on my calender, is it on yours? There are 32 days untill camp. Can it get any better than this? Actually the thing is, yesterday i had a horrible day, so anything is better than that. Max im's me yesterday, asking for my e-mail so he can send me the picture of Gavi and the naked cowboy, and so then hes like "camp is coming", no shit shirlock. I'm laughing now, because Sam knows what I want to say next, because I said it on the hpone last night, but I'm not sure its appropriate for the Internet where everyone can read. BUT NEWAY, I have to go get a gift for Jordi, and then maybe i can have a star trek marathon!!! Oh yeah, i love fridays!

5-21-03

My cough is starting to get really bad. I sound like an old man who's been smoking for 30 years. Interact had a pizza party today, but almost no one showed up, so it wasn't all that fun. Then I helped Katie with chem., she tried to pay me ten dollars for helping her but I wouldn't let her. I didn't really do anything, I think she really knows this stuff well. Then she gave me this candy from England. It was like this big chocolate bar with mini m+m's but not real m+m's, like the English brand. They were called smarties, but it was weird, cuz smarties in America are those little sugar pieces. I ate like half of it, it was really good. So I got home today around 4, and I have USY tonight. That should be fun, I think, maybe not, I don't know. It's kinda been sucking lately, but I'll deal. It got so cold today, I hate it when its cold, especially in may. Spring is like non-existent. It makes me wonder whether it's going to be a cold summer. Then yesterday, as I had mentioned my new earrings came, and so my mom sees that I changed it and asked to see it, she then says to me "Eww!! That's disgusting!" So my dad asks to see and he says "Eww! (then turns to my mom and says) I told you this was a bad idea." I was livid (nice word huh?). But I didn't do anything because I didn't think it was worth a fight. So I was silent during dinner, so my mom's like "What's your problem?" and I just flipped. For god sakes, how many times has she said to me "If you have nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all." I was screaming at her, and the thing is I knew and she knew that I was right, yet she still tried to defend herself. So I just finished eating and went upstairs. Then later that night, she comes home from a meeting, and she says to me "Pamela, I'm sorry, I was wrong." And I'm just like "I know." And went back to finding more cookies to eat. She thought it was funny what I said, but I didn't think I needed to be like "It's ok." because it wasn't and she needed to know that. The funny thing was, we had been talking about this kind of stuff that day in lunch, so I already had a well developed argument, it turned out really nice for me. This has got to be one of the longest entries I've written in a long time. I just felt the need to tell that story. Honestly, go fuck yourself if you have nothing nice to say, because I just don't want to hear it. And on that note, stick up for what you believe is right, because in the end you'll always win.

This just in....Bye bye Vanderbilt (This sux, I really liked that place) 

This is kinda hard to read isn't it........ Well im not going to do anything about it, BAHAHA

5-20-03

The new Less Than Jake cd came out today, and I went to go buy it because it was only 9 dollars at best buy. It's ok, but I hate how they put Look What Happened on like every cd. Yesterday I went to help out with kindergarten screening with Alissa and Katie, it was interesting. We went to the bathroom and they had these rules up. I thought they would be bathroom rules, but they weren't, they're kind of funny. We got back in the middle of fifth, but we were excused from sixth, so we weren't going to go, but I got a little annoyed at everyone and we weren't doing anything of value, so I ended up going to class, finishing the assignment in 5 minutes, and then going online. My new earrings came today. They're a size smaller than what my hole is now, so when i put one in, it was kind of wobbling around (it's a barbell), it feels really wierd. And Hal send me this picture today from spring kinnus. That was a lot of fun! Good times, good times. I have to go get some work done. I hope you enjoy today's links. 

5-18-03

Happy Birthday Nate!!!

The Matrix Reloaded was AMAZING!! Wow! If you didn't already see it, go see it. Today is divisional elections for USY, so I'm gonna go to that later. I just downloaded the remix for Grand Theft Autumn by Fall Out Boy, and it is really good. You can get it off mp3.com if you want to hear it. I really have nothing to write, so I'm gonna go now. BBYE! 

5-17-03

So Aaron bailed out on me today, and i had to go to the Fall Out Boy concert by myself. Still so worth it. I hung out with these girls who I've seen before when I've been at the Downtown. Fall Out Boy was off the hook! I pushed up front for them and they were soooooooo good! And then afterwards, on the monitors on the sides of the stage, they put on the Matrix, it was awesome. They are such an amazing band. They're new cd, Take It To Your Grave, is AMAZING! There is not a song on there that I don't like, so if you don't already have it, it is def worth buying. I also started listening to some Wakefield, the stuff I've heard is pretty good. They're playing on June 14 at the Downtown, and I was already planning on going for TYA so its just an added plus. I'm trying to fit in as many concerts as I can before I leave for camp. It's gonna be a lot of fun :). And yesterday I found out that I was really invited to Jordi's sweet-16, but my invite must've gotten lost in the mail, so now I'm really happy. That's gonna be awesome, I just have to make arrangements on getting there. I really need a car......... I'm going out later to see the Matrix Reloaded with Julie. She had left me her cell number thru aim, but my aim crashed so i lost it, so i just called her house and need her to call me back so i can tell her where i live. Also, i went to target to get pizza for dinner, and i brought 3 dollars, and i was 25 cents short, so i had to walk home and then back again. Today has been kinda frustrating, but still fun.

5-10-03

On thursday we had lost cable in my house. I couldn't go online for so long, it was like hell. But as my dad said "the dark night has lifted from over our house". I had a dream the other night that I was being attacked by a squirrel. It was so weird. I always thought they were such nice little creatures, but now i just have a grudge. I got a new phone cover, the red one, it's really hot. The AP test was yesterday, i thought it was hard, but I'm not going to worry about it. I was so nervous for that test. I had never been so nervous for a test since 7th grade. But it's over, so I can just put it behind me. Camp is in either 46 or 45 days. That's just awesome. I have a huge amount of homework to do that i didn't start yet. Tomorrow I'm going to Great Neck for Mother's Day. It'll be fun. Maybe Aaron can bring his x-box. We played yesterday after dinner. I have to say that the missile launcher is my absolute favorite gun. Three good songs I'm really into (like i have on replay) - Faction and Help Save the Youth of America by LTJ, Nowhere by ASOB. Oh, btw, I'm looking for a new sn so if you have ne good suggestions jplease e-mail me.  

5-7-03

IT'S SO HOT IN MY ROOM I CAN'T STAND IT!!!!! AAAAHHHHHHHHH

5-6-03

Happy Birthday Julie!

I'm really sick of doing this birthday thing so i might just make a whole seperate page for birthdays. Anyway, a lot of stuff has happened today, and I officially have issues. Camp is in either 51 or 52 days, I can't remember. The Fall Out Boy cd (Take this to your grave) came out today, but since they're not very big, they don't sell it at Best Buy, so I'm going to have to buy it online. My mom went out to the DMV and got all the info about me getting my permit (which won't be for a while but still...). See, I'm going to read the book before hand and pass the exam, unlike some people I know cough*Uruj*cough We took a practice AP exam in class and I got a 3 and now I'm more worried than before, because not all schools count that as passing. I've had Let Go stuck in my head all day. It's a really good song, but I don't know all words because I can't understand a lot of what he's saying. Um, Max has yet to send me the pictures of Gavi and the naked cowboy, so I get the feeling he's really never going to, as Gavi had hoped. I finally got a chance to talk to Sam today after like two weeks. And I'm really excited for USY tomorrow because I haven't been there in a while. Quite frankly, I don't even know why you're reading this, because I'm bored to death just writing it.

5-5-03

Happy Birthday Mike and Uruj!

Today has been a relatively productive day. I learned that acute doesn't mean small, it means severe, so now SARS is not contradictory but redundant. I finally got a chance to go the gym after about 3 weeks, and it wasn't so bad getting back into the scheme of things. I talked to Sam for a little bit, which was good. I hope her head gets better soon. I was also talking to this kid Anthony G (I don't know his whole last name) on the bus today. He was ecstatic about this periscope thing he made and how he actually did the work and got an A. That just boggles my mind, no freakin duh! If you do the work then you get a good grade. But anyway, he was mesmerized by the thing and kept talking about how cool it was, it was quite amusing, he's a nice guy. I'm also really into the song Frayed Ends by Midtown, it's really short and the lyrics are not all that good, but something about it has me listening on repeat. The AP Euro exam is Friday, but I'm not too worried anymore. I did Hebrew school yesterday, so I don't have to go tonight. I love the freedom of not having anywhere to go. The Matrix Reloaded comes out in 10 days!!! I'm very excited, if you haven't noticed. Back to studying, so long and fare well. 

5-3-03

It's been a while. Let me recap the past few weeks...Passover, trip to gavi's house, SKATE AND SURF FEST. So sasf was AMAZING, but Sam got hurt. She stretched out a nerve in the back of her head and so her head was numb while we were there and now just hurts a lot. I only got a bunch of bruises, but somehow sam managed to do that. I had a great time, i spent more than 100 dollars so now im a little short, but its ok. The AP exam is this coming of friday, but im not too worried. I can bullshit the essay and Iive been reading my review book so hopefully i can rememeber everything. It is now may, and it's getting warmer. I got a lot of stuff for summer. I had a dream last nite with a bunch of people form cmap, it was really nice to see everyone. I'm not sure how many days are left, but im sure its not too many. This year is gonna be nuts with tests, i wish i cud just skip the next to months. The Chem regents is the 24th and the first day of camp is the 25th, so basically, i have no break until then. I cleaned my room today, it took me three hours, i really let it get out of control this time. But it still looks messy cuz i have all this stuff on my floor that needs to be brought downstairs. Yesterday i fell asleep during Jimmy Neutron, which is kind of a shocker if u know me since im one of those people who needs to be in a bed in pj's and all ready for bed in order to fall asleep. and........ i forgot my calc on friday and i needed for my chem test so i called my mom and she brought it and she brought me a cookie too. and not just any cookie, it was one of THE cookies. i was very happy. BTW, i dont think i have ne readers because no one sent me ne emails about the colors, so yeah. It's 4 o'clock and i forgot to have lunch so im gona go do that b4 i pass out.

4-18-03

It's now Passover, and the Seders are over. Sam and her family came over for the first night and that was a lot of fun, but I was really tired. Second night seder was soooo much fun. Aaron made viking hats that we changed into fish and still wore on our heads. Origami is cool. We had the usual 24 questions, and then at the end of the seder, we were singing the songs and having a great time on our side of the table, while the other side was talking and not participating, so we started the seder over to see if they'd notice. We got through the four questions before my mom asked what was going on. Then it was like a best of marathon, where we did the the whole matzah ze zu zo thing and sang the who knows one song in every tune there is all at the same time. Then we did those stupid passover songs to tunes like Giligan's Island and Clementime. This was finally finished off with some Halo. What a great night. My family is so much fun, despite what I may say about them being really annoying sometimes. Although, when I went to sleep i felt like i was running around with a gun killing aliens. It's really dizzying work.

4-11-03

Two days in a row baby! Check that out! I'm in a really good mood... again. I just took a shower while chewing a piece of gum, I've never done that before. See, my sister came home from the eye doctor and gave me a piece of Juicy Fruit, so I was like, ooooo I'm gonna eat this now. Yet, I was going into the shower at that point, and I didn't want to postpone either, so I did them both at the same time. And while in the shower, a conversation i had with Gavi popped into my head. It was an odd conversation about that look (not a look, or the look, but that look, haha). I doubt she remembers it but that's ok. I went to the gym again after school, and I actually have something that's starting to resemble muscle in my arm. Yes, you heard me, muscle! Lunch was hilarious today. Kayla is sooooo funny when she flips out about something random. I almost spit out my water like three times and i was writhing with pain from laughing so hard. It was fun, haha. The quarter is over and I did so much better than I expected in basically every class. I'm going to KCT for dinner tonight to eat disgusting Ben's take-out that's been sitting around for about 3 hours. Oh, and I'm going to get sick from it tonight too. I'm not good at goodbye's so yeah...........

4-10-03

So the quarter is over. And despite my bad feelings about it, everything fell right into place. Don't you just love it when that happens? I have nothing to cry about, just some really great things to look back on and even better things to look forward to. It's such a relief not to have anything serious to worry about. Sometimes I wonder if its all real because it seems like its just too good to be true. I always have something fun to do, school has gone just as i planned, and I have the absolute greatest friends ever.  76 days till CRB '03, 4 days till Sprout and 15 days till SASF. Oh, and Passover - which means shopping in the city, visiting Gavs, and having Sam's family over for the seder (or should I say Sam's brother, haha). AND I'm gonna get to wear Sam's New Ro sweatshirt (woohoo!!). OK, im getting back to my work now...MWAZ 

4-8-03

Happy Birthday Hilary and Melissa AND Hal!!!

(That's a lot of b-days on one day, and i didnt even get to use the talking buddy, haha!)

I really should be doing my homework, but i wanted to add a little something today. I'm going to be redesigning this whole site. Aaron is going to give me dreamweaver and photoshop and then i can start from scratch. I tried to do some redesigning yesterday, but there is so little you can do with FrontPage. It's so restrictive, I don't like it at all. I know that dreamweaver is a hard program, but i have some time, and some good ideas. It should come out interesting. I was really mad because there was no Strong Bad e-mail this week, so I wrote him an angry letter. Maybe I'll get posted, haha yeah right. Camp is coming up fast and I'm really happy about that. I thought this week would be really busy, but it isnt going to be so bad. I'm really tired, but otherwise I would be happy about that. Oh, and if your looking for a job this summer, or know anyone who is (especially lifeguards) let me know. I was just reading my last entry, and i had totally forgot about Shir HaShirim, woops. This site really sucks, i can't wait to redo it. I guess it has served its purpose, but for too damn long!

4-1-03

It's snowing outside! I just can't stand it anymore. ENOUGH SNOW, BRING ON THE SUN!!! Guys, I started planning another card game mix, though we'll see which we'll name it after at the end of the summer. There are 85 days until camp, that's almost more redic than the snow! AAHH I'm so excited. USY Boat Ride is this weekend, and Passover is coming up. Things are moving fast, but i like that. The faster we get to the summer the better. Skate and Surf Fest is in 24 days. I have to miss the Catch-22/ASOB concert on the 21st at the Downtown because I'm going into the city for shopping and probably hanging out with my Gavs and Sammy Poo, haha!!! We're gonna spend Easter to Earth Day together, haha. I love my calendar, with all it's quirky  facts. Earth Day, haha. No i'm just kidding, i'm just being an idiot like always. I have to start learning Shir HaShirim, but I'll probably just learn it the night before i need to read it. I'm good at procrastinating. For example, this website happens to be a product of that effort. I bet you can guess what I'm doing right now, ay? Ok, this is long enough, i don't want to overburden my readers with stuff to read. Haha!!! It's one of those days. J <-- Check it out, a happy face! 

3-25-03

I have temporarily lost connection to the router, so I can't go online and talk to everyone. I thought I'd take a nap today, but i didnt have time, so I'm just gonna go to sleep really early. Which is fine too. I tried to fit one of my 14 gauge earrings in one of my 20 gauge holes, that didn't work very well. Apparently there are 16 days until vacation. That's very good. I'm so tired, but my hair is still wet so I can't go to sleep yet. My turbie twist thing broke today. I'm going to see SPROUT again, so I'm very excited because they're amazing live. Then there's Skate and Surf Fest, but that's a whole different story. Random thought: Wouldn't you think it would be a whole nother, not another whole, or whole another. But nother is not a word. So if i had wanted to say a whole nother story, it doesn't make sense to say another whole story, or a whole another story. I think too much... 

3-24-03

Spring Kinnus was so amazing! A lot of stuff has happened, but i'm not in the mood to write my life story. This is Dana's self portrait... 

3-18-03

Twice in one week baby!! yeah. this has been like the best week ever. I'm just a little scared of where I'm going from here, because quite frankly, i have nowhere to go but down. But that's ok, I've accumulated quite the support group, haha. 99 DAYS TILL CAMP!!! I'm so excited for the summer. Gesher is going to be amazing! This weekend is spring kinnus, and I'm really looking forward to it, it's going to be awesome. I get to miss spanish tomorrow for an assembly :). Not that i don't like spanish, but i get to miss class so u kno... Oh, and if anyone is looking for a job over the summer, or knows someone who is (especially lifegaurds) let me know!!! It will be greatly appreciated. So, i think that's all for now. I'm going to go play Trogdor again, haha. BYE!

3-16-03

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WINZEL!!!

3-14-03

I took off the entry from yesterday. It was too pathetic to leave up. I'm leaving in about 15 minutes to go meet two two-year-olds who I'm probably going to start babysitting. This is going to work out well for me, except I don't know how much i should charge. Normally I say like 6 dollars an hour, but they have an 8 year old too. So maybe 7? I don't know, I'm bad with that. Whatever. MEGAN'S SWEET 16 IS TONIGHT!!!! I'm so excited. I just did my nails for it. haha. I was going to take a nap before but i talked to sam instead. It was quite amusing. She is officially coming to SASF with me so im VERY excited. I wonder if Aaron bought the tkts yet. I hope so. Today was a good day, except for I think Katie might be mad at me. I hope not. My fingers are really cold. I have a lot to do this weekend, i doubt I'll actually do it all though. No, i will, nevermind that. I hate being unprepared. 

2-13-03

Sam's latest masterpiece...  It the funniest shit i've seen in a long time!!!

2-7-03

So it's a snow day. I'm actually a little disappointed, i wanted to have school today. I had some stuff i wanted to get done and I was gonna be able to get out of a few classes. Whatever. My whole family is home today, so u know how that is. I'm kinda in a bad mood, i guess. Yesterday was such a good day but today is gonna suck because i'm stuck at home. I never thought a snow day would disappoint me. Well, it just goes to show u that once again my planning never works, and you should never leave anything to the last minute. The good thing is, that because i wanted to have school today i did all my homework, so i don't have any homework this weekend. And, I'm gonna see sam, gavi, and nate this weekend. Alright, i feel a little better now. But the nausea from those cookies i ate is starting to kick in... i knew that was a bad idea, but those peanut butter cup cookies are just so good. I can't resist them. By the way, I know I may have said I was gonna get a new program and make this site better than what it is, but i don't have the time to learn how to use the program right now, so maybe sometime in the future. 

1-28-03

Sorry, it's been a while. I've been really busy though. Second quarter is over, only 90 days of school left, and only like 150 something left until camp. I got a guitar. I'm not very good but I'm working on it. I'm gonna get some lessons from a friend soon. I'm also doing the website for Nate's band... which is lacking a name. Oohohohh!!! my new e-mail is working... its me@pamelae.com If you forget, the other one will still work for a while, but try to use this one. I'm gonna try to make the other one just for junk mail. There's a lot of stuff coming up... February 1st is my half birthday, February 9th is Gav's play, February 15 is tha all day concert at the downtown that Sam is coming to, February 16th we're gonna get together in the city, possibly another concert. Things are going good. I just got my BFS t-shirt and the TYA cd. I'm really excited for the one coming out in April/may. Those guys are awesome. I was persuaded by Mike to download TBS despite the fact that i didn't like them when i saw them, and they're not so bad. I also just made the Brand New cd. It's pretty good. I finally got a Sprout shirt. I love them, they're amazing. January 20th was awesome astounding  amazing wonderful miraculous great and more!!! I got up to the stage for Sprout and it was great. JT half tripped and almost fell on top of me, it was really funny. My AP Euro midterm was today so I'm done for the week. WOOHOOO!!! oh and have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?

1-5-03

Vacation is coming to a close unfortunately. However, it is snowing, so there's a possibility of a late arrival or maybe even no school. That would be amazing. The reunion was so much fun. Even though there were only 8 of us from Machon there, it was great! I put the pictures I took up. They're under Summer 2002 if you want to see them. I really enjoyed seeing you guys and I can't wait to see you again. I have to go study for AP Euro so I will put up a better entry another time. Until then...

1-2-03

Happy New Year! This year is definitively starting out better than last year. Everything has just fallen into place. Don't you love it when that happens?

PS I'm getting into typing with normal grammatically correct writing. As you can tell, I have no spelling mistakes in this entry. I think I'm going to do the whole website like that, but i don't know when. Something else to look forward too...

12-27-02 (Well, actually 12-30, but i wasn't home, so. Yeah i know it doesn't make ne sense. If you want an explanation e-mail me.)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANDRA!!!!

I know i had said i'd put that up before, but i was away and so i couldn't. But now its there. Neway, I'm not going to the TSL/Simple Plan/Brand New Concert unfortunately. I'm kinda upset. But not as upset about my order at drive-thru records. That's a whole other story though. Bermuda was fun. I got a cool sweatshirt. It's weird, cuz i didn't really want to go on vacation originally, but now i don't want to be home. It's like camp. I really wish i could've gone to that concert. It would've gotten me back into the swing of things. But now I'm stuck at home, and though i have things to do, i just don't feel like doing anything. The reunion is soon and i'm excited, but i'm doing my stupid planning and so it's gonna suck. I hate how i can't stop my bad habits. I'm seriously considering cutting my hair short. It's just kinda getting annyoing and in the way, and i think it makes me look younger than i really am. Or maybe i think short hair will make me look older. I dunno, I guess I'm just bored with it. And knowing me, I'll take so long to decide that i won't end up getting it cut. But we shall see. I have two star treks to go watch. Then i think i'm gonna read East of Eden. It's such an amazing book, I'd recommend it to anyone. I just hate those stupid journal entries i have to write. They take up so much time and then i have to stop reading cuz i put it off for so long. I also have to do some AP Euro. I'm feeling very dizzy right now, I hope i don't pass out. 

12-8-02

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAMARA!!!!!

I tried calling her house to wish her a happy 16th birthday but she didn't pick up so i'll try again later. This weekend i was supposed to go to Katie's party but i did't get her address in school and then i couldn't find it. I was really pissed cuz i was really excited about going. Instead i ended up going to a torah dedication at KCT and then to Best Buy, where i got an cordless mouse and keyboard, i can take my Ap Euro notes form my big comfey chair now instead of infront of my computer. And i got my chanukkah present from nate. It's a sunday, but is still came in the mail...go figure. He sent me a Spongebob stuffed animal... how cool is that. And his pants come off!!! i was very excited. Thank you nate. I gotta finish some work and take a shower because there is school tomorrow. Only two more weeks till Christmas break!!! Oh, and i think part of my 11-30 blog entry got deleted, but i don't know what it said so i don't know what to put there. If u know let me know...haha 

12-5-02

IT'S A SNOW DAY!!!!!!!

That's all i have to say, you can guess about the rest. :)

11-30-02

What a week! First the concert at The Downtown (very very fun) Guster concert (so amazing!!) then Thanksgiving (always fun) now Hanukkah (so smoke your mara-juanic-ah, haha)

11-23-02

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL!!!!!!

Today i saw Harry Potter... it was very good. And then i wrote a ridiculous story for english about a salmon and a bear. Nate helped me write it. If u wanna read it let me know and ill send it to you. It's the best story ever!!!! Some things i had recently planned are turning out to be a burden, but that's alright, ill deal. I really have nothing interesting to write, just wanted to wish Rachel a happy 16th birthday. I'll ttys... mwa 

11-22-02

Wow, things are really great. Everything i wanted to happen has happened, or is going too, then unexpected happy things just keep happening. Ok, that was a really stupid sentence. Anyway, i'm really starting to see people differently. A lot of things i except form certain people turn out to be totally different and even better. I wish i could've learned about all this stuff earlier. And then again, there are some things that are sucking but things i can handle. Guster is on wed. That's gonna be so awesome. And im going to a concert at the Downtown on monday, and im getting my ear pierced on tue!!!!!! I finally convinced my parents, they won't let me get the rod so im settling for a plain old cartilage piercing. But nowadays, you have to go to a tattoo parlor to get it done so that should be interesting. Today was fun, i finally understand why you would use a bomb calorimeter and it's all because of spongebob. The POOP episode was on tonight... it's def my second fav after the fun episode. I think thats all for now.. things are gonna be busy for a little while, sorry if u don't hear from me.

11-15-02

So, hmm...whats going on? Well, USY was really irritating this week. I won't be back for the next 2 weeks so it'll be a while. Guster is in less than 2 weeks!!!! and Camp is in, im guessing, something like 220 days. Tomorrow im hanging out with some people from Newfield, so that should be fun. The whole family is coming on Sunday, but i still might end up going to the movies with some people from WM. Harry Potter's out! So gonna see that, i love him. Mike was wrong about concert dates. The Starting Line is playing with Simple Plan and Brand New, and i don't know who else, on DECEMBER 30 at Sports Plus... and that would be great except for the fact that im coming home from Bermuda that day and my mom said it was a bad idea. But maybe Aaron can convince her to let me go. I'm prolly gonna see Ethan soon so that'll be cool. Things are going great. oh and i know its a day early but... 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY COHEN!

That's all for know folks, See ya next week (or tomorrow, whatever comes first, :))

11-10-02

Today was a good day. I slept late, didn't do much. I saw my Aunt's new house, it's really nice! I talked to everyone i wanted to, except Gavi, but she's away. Tonight I'm baby sitting for Mathew and Samantha, and though i thought i was working tomorrow, i'm not, so ill get to sleep late and go shopping again instead. Maybe i'll make plans with someone tomorrow. My family has been away all day so i've had the house to myself. I finally got Nate's pics up. Even though i really didn't do much, i feel like i've accomplished something. I can't sit around and do nothing all day, i get this feeling like i have to get up and go. Did i ever mention that i have awesome friends. I don't think i could ask for nething better than them.

11-9-02

So today has been pretty boring altogether. I went shopping and got some stuff but somehow I got into one of those moods where i just wanted to go home and sleep. It's really depressing being home on the weekends. I wish i could go to a kinnus every weekend. it's like camp so its a lot of fun. Plus the fact that i don't have many friends who i would hang out with regularly who live near me. I 28 Days today, that was great. I couldn't stop thinking of Ariel. I also listened to some Goldfinger, they're really good head banging music and they make me happy. There is someone who i really want to talk to right now and i can't so it sucks. I'm not in a very ahppy mood and i don't know how to get out of it. I'd write in my journal but I think it'll just make me more frustrated. Now im starting to remember last year and how i hated doing just what im doing this weekend. I was so looking forward to this, and now it sucks. I guess im just one of those people who always has to be doing something, but i have nothing to do.

11-8-01

OMG! It has been quite bust around here. I just got a new computer, and it has FrontPage on it so ill be able to update more often. But my god, you have no idea. I have done so much stuff in the past month! I haven't slept late in so long. I'm really looking forward to a relaxing three day weeked. Hopefully i'll get a chance to do everything i wanted to do. AS an update i have now been to 2 kinnuses and have made such amazing friends. I really love USY this year. I got to see Gavi and Sam at No Experience, and then i met a bunch of cool people. Then there was Rakevet Fall Kinnus, and well, u all know what went on there, haha, i miss u guys! It was great to see Amanda again, and to see Jayme, who i haven't seen in like 2 years so that was awesome. It was like a Schechter reunion, Hochbaum was there too. I also went to a concert at the Vanderbuilt on 10-24. It was so absolutely amazing! I'm totally in love with The Starting Line , who played there, and RBF (the headliner) was, well, i don't even have words to express how good they were. School has been ridiculously busy, but today was the last day of first quarter, so basically, i have almost no homework, except for AP Euro. I'm actually enjoying that calss now, but so many people left! there are 17 in the class, we're getting down to Schechter size, lol. Um, the Guster Concert is in 2 weeks i think. That's gonna be awesome! I got my machon shirt and the video, that was very exciting. And i had the weirdest dream last night. I was driving AL home from somewhere and then all the sudden he jumped out of the car and his head split open and then fell open. I ws like " oh my god! he just comminted suicide!" go figure? 

10-10-02

Wow, it's been a while!!! Well i know my many fans will be happy about me writing something new. PS U all know who u are so stop bothering me about it! haha. Anyway, ive been at Melville for just about a month now, a little more actually. It's great. I love it so much. No offense to my friends from Newf, but this school is so much better. And i made so many more friends so much faster. It's great. So right now my AP class has finally become somewhat easier. I know that i did so well on the quiz we took today. You see, on the test on the summer reading (which by the way i didn't do) i got a D, and i got a B+ on the essay (hell yeah!). So 25% of my grade is a C+, not that u care but i have to write something don't i. I'd just like to mention that WM is a very good looking school. haha Oh, i really got into Good Charlotte lately. I made both their cd's and they're really good. I also have tickets to the Guster Concert at the Hammerstein Ballroom on November 27 so if i don't already know ur going, let me know. So far, i've seen sam, and thats all from camp. I talk to gavi almost everyday though, which is good. I might be going to kickoff, but i can't say whether i really am or not b/c i can't have  a certain person (cough*nate* cough) if im going or not. If you wanna know just ask me.  I am now officially a member of USY, and im def coming back to camp next year, which is good. I'm not doing my countdown shtick this year though cuz last year, i wasted all my excitement on the last 20 days and by the time the first day came along, i wasn't excited nemore and it sucked. It's weird now that i think back about how at the end of the year i really didn't want to go back. Thank god i did. Oh, and i have my two non-school related goals for the year, i wanna learn how to play hacky sack and play guitar. I just for the record, Aaron is the best cousin ever. haha :) Um.. im taking the psat's on tue and colombus day im stuck at home watching my sister cuz my parents have a wedding so feel free to call me at any time and save me from my misery. I'm reading Lord of the Flies in english now. I guess im actually gonna have to read it this time. But istill got the cliff notes so i can understand it better and get better grades and shit. And that way if i get lazy or riun out of time, ill still know whats going on. I played piano again for the fisrt time in like 4 months yesterday. It was nice, but the keys were really dusty. My dad doesn't play much nemore either i guess. I might be doing a duet for NYSSMA with my friend Julie from chem. Funny stroy - she's a ballerina and last year she got home schooled so she could dance, and guess who was her tutor? Marilyn Margulies. What a small world! Um... i think that's all so hopefully ill get a chance to enter this agian soon, if not than farewell for now. I hope things are good.

PS Nate jumped down a flight of stairs and had to use a cane to walk!!! A cane!!! hahahahaa!!1 Sorry, i think its hilarious!

9-3-02

So, school  starts tomorrow :( unfortunatly. I get the feeling this year is gonna be a boring year with a ton of work, but maybe cvuz thats just the mood im in right now. Sometimes i feel like im gonna have fun and other times i feel like its gonna suck, but either way, there's gonna be a ton a work. Which is gonna take some getting used to cuz i had like no work last year at NHS. I updated the poll and moved it so its easier to find. My mom bought me two more pints of one sweet whirled. I was really disapointed todat when i put on one of my old belts cuz it was sooo tight, and it used to fit so nice the way it was. I wanna start at the gym soon so that maybe this year ill be able to get 6 packs instead of 3. but i was getting there, until the summer, now i just have flub. oh well, ahah, itll be fixed soon enough. right now im just enjoying the ben and jerrys. Speaking of which, im wearing my b+j t-shirt from camp. It's really cute. I got another pair of jeans today which was good. I still need to get more pairs and i need shirts cuz i only have a few. I still hvae a lot of work to do but i don't wanna do it today cuz its my last fday of freedom and i don't wanna spend it doing work. ill just be bogged down with work tomorrow but whatever. Oh so school starts at 723 and the bus comes at 630 so i have to get up at liek 545! Its so rediculous! they excpect me to be awake for that???? thats one of main reasons i hate school. Id rather have school start an hour later and get out an hour later. I may be able to get an extra ten minutes of sleep if i go to another bus stop, which i might do. but my mom doesn't really want me too because id have to walk through the woods and its sometimes dark in the morning, but whatever, i don't really care. I just hope i can remember peoples names tomorrow. i know ill have people to sit with at lunch which is good, but i hope i can remember their names. I'm gonna go relax and watch some tv. This has been a pretty bad last day of vacation. A great way to sum up the summer right?

8-27-02

Time has definately been flying. I've moved into my room and everything is where it shud be. I was just unpacking from camp but had to stop cuz it wasd really upseting me . Right now im sitting here crying because i hate my life at home. School is going to majorly suck and time is going by quickly, its starting soon. I just wanna get it over with and go back to camp. I don't feel like cleaning up my room and putting everything away. it's just not worth the effort. I have to get up early again tomorrow cuz i have an appointment to get my stupid back checked out again. And this doctor runs so far behind u have to sit there for lit. two hours before they take u into the rrom, where you wait another 40 minutes. And my back doesn't even hurt me. My room is incredibly hot and i can't stay in there. I don't know how im gonna sleep tonight. For some reason the a/c doesn;t work so well in there so im always hot. Today i went shopping and mustve tried on five million things and at the end of the day i got one shirt. Hopefully tomorrow i'll do better. Only good news ive had today is one of my only good friends from Newfield (my old school) might be moving into my district. Which would be amazing cuz im really gonna miss her in school this year. I didn't try out for v-ball, im still not sure if that was a good idea or not, we'll just have to see. Nate said he was gonna call me while he was away, that hasn't happened. I haven't spoken to neone from camp in a few days and its really disappointing. I don't care who u are just give me a call cuz im most likel;y bored or upset about being home. and its been more than a week since i got home. I guess i wouldve been like this last year too if i didn't have that whole thing with adam keeping my mind off it, but this year i have no one like that, unfortunatly, and nothing to keep my mind off thinking about how i hate being here. My sisters been a royal pain in my ass lately. She doesn't leave me alone, and she doesn't stop being annoying. I really can't live with her for another year. I keep thinking about how awesome college is gonna be, cuz its not only that i miss camp, but that i can't stand being at home with my parents and my sister. I like to be around my friends all the time, and her i never am. Wow, what a run on sentence. Sorry for boring you with my boring life and cmplaining like an idoit. I probably shouldn't put this online but im going to anyway. I've got to go update the poll cuz ive gotten some responses,finally. Don't be embarresed about voting, im seriously not gonna tell anyone because frankly, who cares who voted for who. Dana, im sorry for not putting anything on about u When u think of something let me know and ill put it on. In the mean time stop harrassing me about it cuz its just kinda starting to piss me off and i hate that. aight- peace, im out like a boner in sweatpants. 

8-24-02

So, i actually did get my pictures working. Sorry about all that confusion. Go look at all the pics and answer the poll. I think im moving into my room today. I got carpeting yesterday and blinds this morning. Yesterday i went to my mom's office. It was the last day of Rolling Hills. I got to hang out with one of my old camp friends so it was fun. Last night i finally got to talk to Nicole, who i've been wanting to call, but since my address book is packed, i didn't have her number. That was one of the most fun convo's once we started fucking with Ricky's head :) . Anyway, today we are accessorizing my bathroom and closet. I'm really excited cuz we're going to Ikea and i've never been there. I need to get a bunch of picture frames for my room too. Oh, the den furniture is coming today, yay! not that id be using it neway because i don't watch tv. For some reason, when i get home form camp, i never like whats on. Plus, i don't know how to work the new cable box. My dad has yet to show me. I am now officially in love with Reel Big Fish. My cousin gave me two cd's from them to listen to, and then copy, i guess, cuz hes prob not gonna let me keep them. They're sooooo good. I wish u guys could hear these other songs too. Go buy some of there cds. Somehow, between me losing all my pics online and putting them back on im missing one so im sorry about that. If i figure out which it is ill put it back on. And most likely ill have more pics to put up b/c people are sending me doubles. If u have ne doubles u want me to put up, send them to me. I'll send 'em back when im done if u want. Just let me know. I talked to a bunch of people last night, some of which really pissed me off cuz they were being really obnoxious. But, oh well, its their problem, not mine. Also yesterday, i saw Greg Gioia, or however you spell his name, and hes growing a mohawk. It's kinda funny, and not very appealing, but hey, whatever floats your boat, right? Thats all for now folks, ill try to update soon, but i've been finding that im already getting lazy, haha. lyl mwa!

8-22-02

I thought this was an interesting change to the website. I'm to lazy to customize the colors again, and the purple was making my quite sick so this will do for now. Sorry about the whole music thing. I'm just not willing to pay for a website just so you can get your songs. I'm looking for other ways though, so don't worry. I'll find a way. I started doing so AP Euro hw this morning and barely got past the first page before falling asleep. I think im gonna consider dropping this shit. I hate ss, why would i bother doing extra work for it? As opposed to what i said yesterday, im gonna get my pics today. If they are not ready again, im gonna be very very mad! I wanna see them so badly. Did i ever mention i hate that i live so far away from everyone. All my friends live sooooooooooooooo far away! Its almost impossible to get together with my friends form camp w/o driving for at least an hour. how irritating is that?!?!?!? Neway, there are still a bunch of people from camp who i wanted to talk to and haven't yet. If ur one of those poeple, please give me a call. Tomorrow im going to work with my mom. It's the last day of her camp, so there'll be some stuff for me to do. And i have some friends there so ill get to see them. I finished my pint of one sweet whirled last night, and now i have no ice cream to eat. I think im gonna pick some up when i go over to Target today, just like everyday. I swear, im gonna gain so much weight this year, unless i work it off from going up and down all the freakin stairs in my house. I definately miss the ranch life.  Oh, ps to Ariel - SEND ME THE QUOTES!!!! I wanna put them on here with the pics. Although i haven't done much this past week, or nething, i got some good things planned. I'm going to this concert thing with my cousin sometime soon. I'm not exactly sure when it is, hes just like " look, wanna go?" how could i say no? And then next week i might be going to meet some people from my new school, which will be good. I'm feeling a lot more optimistic about school now. I think it could be really fun if i don't get all shy and shit like i usually do. And i think decided not to try out for v-ball. I'm gonna go shower and get dressed or maybe ill go take a nap cuz im tired. Ill prob update this again later with my pics, but don't get too excited cuz yesterday was quite the let down. 

8-21-02

So, I'll be getting my pics back today. I'm having some problems publishing this site, so u guys might not see this till tomorrow. Last night i was up till around 1 on the phone. I was trying to put together everything that happened on the last night of camp cuz i kept thinking about who i had hung out with and stuff and i couldn't figure out how i ended up where. I dunno, im weird like that. I like to replay good things in my mind before i go to sleep so im happy when i go to sleep, therefore im happy when i wake up. But there were so many gaps i was having problems doing it. Haha, im just the biggest loser ever! Neway, just to let you all know, One Sweet Whirled, has got to be one of the best ice cream flavors ever. I had half a pint last night cuz i couldn't stop eating it. And i was too afraid to go back downstairs and put it away. See, downstairs the alarm is sound sensitive and i was afraid of setting the alarm off while i was putting it away, though i did finally end up doing it. And Gavi was on the phone at the time and had to be screaming as i went downstairs, but whatever. No biggy right? haha i love u! I changed the background to this page again. I can't really find one that i like. This purple is starting to make me nauseous so ill prob change soon, even though i got compliments on it.  I also changed around the Music pages and anything you think is confusing, let me know and ill try to make it easier. Though i think the sites pretty simple. I'm really looking forward to the pictures. Thats basically all my site usually is so its pretty bare right now. If you guys have ne pics u want me to put on just mail me the doubles and ill put them up. Oh, so last night they put in a ceiling fan and lights into my room. The smell from paint still makes me really dizzy, so we left all the windows open. Once again, im sorry my url isn't working right now. My cousin said it should be working today, but its taking longer than he thought so we'll just wait it out. It'll work eventually.

8-20-02

Ok, now here's the new part of my website. Upon request( (from Gavi, your welcome in advance, haha) i'm adding a little diary section thing down here so you can all know whats going on with my life. I'll try to add things often, though knowing me, ill most likely  get lazy in a month or so so they won't be as often. But now that my dad's computer is upstairs i don't have to walk far to update my website (his computer used to be downstairs) And i know ur all wondering why i don't just put the program right on my computer, which would be the smart thing, because i have no more freakin memory because of all the songs i have downloaded. Which reminds me i have to set up a page with the bunk mix and the rummy 500 mix. If ne of u asked for some other songs that i forgot to add let me know and ill put them on. So i just got back from camp yesterday. I had the most amazing time ever! I miss u guys so much! I'd go through all the names, but u know who u are and what u mean to me. Oh, as a side note, my sn is sweetshop31 for all of u who don't know.  So i got back yesterday, as i said before. That must've been the saddest day ever. I was so antsy at home i had to get out. Which was when i found i shortcut from my house to a shopping center with target, best buy, and home depot. Five minute walk! im going there every day now so i can get pizza from target, which has a pizza hut and a taco bell in it, but taco bell is kinda out of the question. My pictures are costing me $60 so develop, but i love u guys so its worth it. Update on my new house, i don't have a room yet. It has a very nice closet though, haha. It smalls mad gross in there from the paint and is not well insulated. I also don't have carpeting. My mom said i should be there by saturday, but until then, im sleeping my moms office, and living out of my bags from camp because my furniture is still wrapped up.  I decided to split the work i have for AP Euro with a friend and one of his friends so now, hopefully, ill actually get it done. im gonna go get dressed so i can take my sis over to target to get lunch, at three, because im still in camp mode (tear). Speaking of which, out of habit, i woke up at 8:30 this morning (7:30 camp time) and though i fell back asleep, it was upsetting. TTYL mwa

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